"Perhaps all the dragons of our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us once beautiful and brave. Perhaps everything terrible is, in its deepest being, something helpless that wants help from us."--Rainer Maria Rilke
This iz my grandmother (yup, that's a baby DivaMama ridin her hip), and for years I'd have sworn she was a thinly disguised dragon!
She's the wombn who raised me. She was a stern, angry and pained wombn, who lived through horrors I can only dimly imagine... Two world wars...Growing up only 2 generations away from chattel slavery in the jim crow south...Escaping that place to start a family all the way on the other side of the world in Los Angeles, California...
She suffered, persevered and managed to survive under the weight of never diagnosed and never treated mental illness, that sought daily to bring to light the deep scars of her own psyche by making them appear on my young body.
I spent much of my early life hating her.
And yet, even then I could see that there was more to Lillie B. than hers, or my, pain. She was born with Dreams and Desires her life and times wouldn't allow her touch, and she knew it!
Today the Dreams I have lived, am creating and will invent, sing with the Light of her Desires as well as my own. Perhaps because she taught me up close the horrible depths of pain and self-denial, I've dedicated my life to opening myself & anybody withing my reach, wide to Magnificence!
Today, no more dragon do I see.
what an incredible inspirational beautiful and blessed wombn you are... you have touched so amny hearts and lives with your beauty it's truley a blessing, and an honour to be part of your friends circle... hale Lille B for raising such a strong beautiful joyful peace riding soul...x
Posted by: reham | June 28, 2007 at 04:34 PM
Black wombn over their, pained, lonely and in dispair. I saw you smile through your painted on fears. You came here to dance this mysterious dream and wondered why oh why did I pick this dream? But when all is said and all is never done you may have come back as her beautiful, loving son.
Peace, Love and Joy
Nejh
Posted by: nejh | July 23, 2005 at 09:50 PM
HTP Nut,
Wow, I had no idea of what you had to deal with in your early years and to have become the radiant being you are is such an inspiration. Look forward to connecting with you again. Peace Liaya
Posted by: Liaya Aneb Nua | May 18, 2005 at 02:34 PM
What lovely understandings you extend, a way of blessing all those who cause pain, either to us personally or those we have never met. And a reminder that my choice is always to be a disperser of either peace and joy or pain. Blessings! Rita
Posted by: Rita Losee | May 17, 2005 at 04:33 AM
Lillie B
I have never approached anywhere near the pain you have lived through, but I do have some understanding of it. We can't change the past but we can heal in the present and come from a place of wholeness.
From your womb has come such incredible beauty and energy that has touched many. I celebrate this amazing blessing with you.
Posted by: diana | May 17, 2005 at 01:22 AM
Diva Mama Nut is one of the most incredibly beautiful wombn I know. So today I thank you, Lillie B., for your part in creating the beautiful wombn I get to experience as my dear and special friend. Thank you with all my heart.
Velma
Posted by: Velma | May 16, 2005 at 09:10 PM